Well, I officially hate my life. I know a lot more people have it harder than me but I just feel so lonely, afraid, angry, happy, and just over all conflicted. Today was the first day I actually wished death upon someone. The upside of it was that it was my grandma :/ I feel terrible, but the things she said today were just....there's no words for them. She's a manipulating twat headed fat fuck who just needs to die already. I can't even believe there's such a mean of a person in this world - God really fucked up on this one. Who the hell says "Hey sweetie, maybe you should lose a few pounds...you're really overweight (mind you I'm 5'9" adnd 141 lbs) I'm embarassed to be around you. Well, I mean you've got nothing going for you so you might as well go ahead and eat to death! :D " WHO THE HELL SAYS THESE KIND OF THINGS?!?! And to your own granddaughter for Pete's sake!!! I can't even wrap my mind around this. A God-bearing person thinks and says these things!
Fuck it.
Fuck it.
Fuck it.
Fuck it.
Oh, and a couple of days ago my mother (she's in prison) decided to tell me that I have another brother who she gave up for adoption and now he wants to meet her and talk! His family is rich, nice, considerate, NOT MENTAL as the most important thing, and REALLy truly loves him. Why couldn't I be adopted out? It's a terrible thing to wish but I mean seriously, why can't I be him? I've just been in a real pissy mood lately. Everything is crumbling.
I'm losing everything. Help somebody, I just can't take it much longer. I'm dying inside and I can't save myself.
Help.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
FML.
Today was the worst day of my life. My computer got a virus that shuts it down and when I try to back everything up it cancels everything. ALL of my files (i.e. pictures, music, documents) are gone. EVERYTHING!!! I don't know what to do!!!!! I'm reall stressin' out! OHMYGOD!!!!! How do I fix it?!?! My aunt says she doesn't know what she can do about it in the voice where you can tell she just wants me to shut up and implies that she doesn't care. I hate this. Help me. I'm freakin's out so much! THAT'S ALL I CAN SAY OVER AND OVER!!!! THERE'S NO OTHER WORDS FOR THIS!!!
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
HEELLLPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is how my aunt would react if all the stuff on her crackberry was deleted. I've seen her act this way. It's happened before and then she has the balls to tell ME I'M overreacting!!!
WTF MAN?!
Stupid technology.
Stupid viruses.
Who creates them? Whoever it is - I HATE them.
Hate.
Hate.
Hate.
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
HEELLLPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is how my aunt would react if all the stuff on her crackberry was deleted. I've seen her act this way. It's happened before and then she has the balls to tell ME I'M overreacting!!!
WTF MAN?!
Stupid technology.
Stupid viruses.
Who creates them? Whoever it is - I HATE them.
Hate.
Hate.
Hate.
12 Hours of Sleep? Win.
Hola Amigos!
IT'S DECEMBER 1!! THAT MEANS 24 MORE DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!!!
Well, it's 4:20 in the morning and I'm doing my blog for yesterday. So, I was at school and went through each class with every single one being uneventful so there's nothing to talk about. But...when I got home around 3 or so I watched my uncle play COD:BO for a little while and then all of a sudden I got REALLY tired. I'm not sure why though, it just kinda hit me like a semi. so I went and laid down and passed right out! I didn't wake up until 4 this morning! Greatest 12 hours of my life. I can't even begin to tell you how good it feels to sleep and not do homework after school. It's ridiculous. I did have HW though and that's probably what I should be doing right now...oh well. This amount of sleep I got is so rare that I just have to blog about it.
So the moral of the story was that I went to bed around 3 and didn't wake up until 4 this morning and I'm so happy, you don't even know.
Well, good morning to you all!
Oh my gosh, I was watching TV on Saturday and My Life As Liz was on!!!!! My favorite show of all time if you can't tell by the title of this blog. Oh, how I wish I had her friends. They're so carefree!
IT'S DECEMBER 1!! THAT MEANS 24 MORE DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!!!
Well, it's 4:20 in the morning and I'm doing my blog for yesterday. So, I was at school and went through each class with every single one being uneventful so there's nothing to talk about. But...when I got home around 3 or so I watched my uncle play COD:BO for a little while and then all of a sudden I got REALLY tired. I'm not sure why though, it just kinda hit me like a semi. so I went and laid down and passed right out! I didn't wake up until 4 this morning! Greatest 12 hours of my life. I can't even begin to tell you how good it feels to sleep and not do homework after school. It's ridiculous. I did have HW though and that's probably what I should be doing right now...oh well. This amount of sleep I got is so rare that I just have to blog about it.
So the moral of the story was that I went to bed around 3 and didn't wake up until 4 this morning and I'm so happy, you don't even know.
Well, good morning to you all!
Oh my gosh, I was watching TV on Saturday and My Life As Liz was on!!!!! My favorite show of all time if you can't tell by the title of this blog. Oh, how I wish I had her friends. They're so carefree!
Monday, November 29, 2010
Well, now I'm a s'more :/
Hello my darlings,
It's the school time again and I still hate most of my classes. Let's go through my schedule -
1st- Spanish II
2nd- Chemistry
3rd- World Studies
4th- AVID
5th- Lunch :D
6th- Math 3/4
7th- Honors English II
School is even worse and I feel like cutting MANY people's throats. It's ridiculous how much I hate school. Last year I had 5 A's and 1 B - now I have 4 B's and 2 C's. I'm slackin' guys. Like right now I should be determining whether HCN is a covalent bond or ionic bond but no, I'm sitting here blogging about how I'm not doing my HW and random junk. I wish I was just born with all the knowledge I need to become a veterinarian. Life would be so simple, wouldn't it?
I don't feel like talking about 1st - 3rd hour today.
In AVID this year we got a new teacher since Twitch wanted to start a family with her boyfriend back in Michigan and when she got there she dumped him because she found out he was cheating. So now we have Smitty. Her parents committed a sin when they did the dirty and created her. She's one of the most senile, belligerent people I know. I just want to cut her ovaries, poop on them and stuff them in her mouth. I hate her with a hot fiery passion in case you couldn't tell. I don't even really care for this class anymore I'm just doing it for an easy A.
Today at lunch my PIC wasn't here so I was stuck at the table with 'The Boys'. Worst day of my life - kinda. Marshal (Michelle) started talking about how when he's 42 he's going to get 21 cock rings and that they're going to be 2 inches in diameter. Oh, when will it end? I'm losing all faith in the sanity of humanity. Then Camacho said that I shall call him "Nipples McGee" from now on. Not a request I get everyday...?
Let me tell you about my math class. Not to diss on the IEP students of the world but, the 3/4 of the class is IEP kids and they are literally some of the stupidest people in the world. I'm not saying it because they're in IEP, I'm saying it because they do not listen and say how it's Leavitt's (math teacher) fault they're failing the class. Elyjah (not an IEP kid) failed the class and got kicked of the football team because of it and said in these exact words "Aye yo Leavitt, It's your fault I failed this class, I got kicked off the football team because of you." and then she said "No, Elyjah, you got kicked off the football team because you're too stupid to realize that just because you're good, doesn't mean you're going to stay on the team and you should probably focus more and you'd probably still be on the team." I'm SOO happy she finally told him off. He's one of those kids who thinks because he's good at something he can step all over the teachers and get away with it. Mind you, he did for a while, but she's not letting him anymore. Oh, and Marianna! She's...she's....something else I tell you. Just the things she says and does are really questionable. I don't even know what she did today that's how ridiculous she is.
English class is just a whole new level of weird. There's this new foreign exchange student named Tamerlan and he's always talking about how my friend Jacob's mother was naughty last night. WHERE DO THE RUSSIANS GET THESE THINGS?!?! I'm always confused when he talks. I get so lost.
That's what happened in my classes today. Until then my loves.
Oh, and on another note - I got invited into NHS and submitted my application and got a letter saying how I wasn't accepted into NHS because I'm lacking Community service. I've been doing community service EVERY SATURDAY FOR 12 FREAKIN' HOURS SINCE LAST DECEMBER!!!! I'm furious right now!!! I don't know what to do!!!!!
It's the school time again and I still hate most of my classes. Let's go through my schedule -
1st- Spanish II
2nd- Chemistry
3rd- World Studies
4th- AVID
5th- Lunch :D
6th- Math 3/4
7th- Honors English II
School is even worse and I feel like cutting MANY people's throats. It's ridiculous how much I hate school. Last year I had 5 A's and 1 B - now I have 4 B's and 2 C's. I'm slackin' guys. Like right now I should be determining whether HCN is a covalent bond or ionic bond but no, I'm sitting here blogging about how I'm not doing my HW and random junk. I wish I was just born with all the knowledge I need to become a veterinarian. Life would be so simple, wouldn't it?
I don't feel like talking about 1st - 3rd hour today.
In AVID this year we got a new teacher since Twitch wanted to start a family with her boyfriend back in Michigan and when she got there she dumped him because she found out he was cheating. So now we have Smitty. Her parents committed a sin when they did the dirty and created her. She's one of the most senile, belligerent people I know. I just want to cut her ovaries, poop on them and stuff them in her mouth. I hate her with a hot fiery passion in case you couldn't tell. I don't even really care for this class anymore I'm just doing it for an easy A.
Today at lunch my PIC wasn't here so I was stuck at the table with 'The Boys'. Worst day of my life - kinda. Marshal (Michelle) started talking about how when he's 42 he's going to get 21 cock rings and that they're going to be 2 inches in diameter. Oh, when will it end? I'm losing all faith in the sanity of humanity. Then Camacho said that I shall call him "Nipples McGee" from now on. Not a request I get everyday...?
Let me tell you about my math class. Not to diss on the IEP students of the world but, the 3/4 of the class is IEP kids and they are literally some of the stupidest people in the world. I'm not saying it because they're in IEP, I'm saying it because they do not listen and say how it's Leavitt's (math teacher) fault they're failing the class. Elyjah (not an IEP kid) failed the class and got kicked of the football team because of it and said in these exact words "Aye yo Leavitt, It's your fault I failed this class, I got kicked off the football team because of you." and then she said "No, Elyjah, you got kicked off the football team because you're too stupid to realize that just because you're good, doesn't mean you're going to stay on the team and you should probably focus more and you'd probably still be on the team." I'm SOO happy she finally told him off. He's one of those kids who thinks because he's good at something he can step all over the teachers and get away with it. Mind you, he did for a while, but she's not letting him anymore. Oh, and Marianna! She's...she's....something else I tell you. Just the things she says and does are really questionable. I don't even know what she did today that's how ridiculous she is.
English class is just a whole new level of weird. There's this new foreign exchange student named Tamerlan and he's always talking about how my friend Jacob's mother was naughty last night. WHERE DO THE RUSSIANS GET THESE THINGS?!?! I'm always confused when he talks. I get so lost.
That's what happened in my classes today. Until then my loves.
Oh, and on another note - I got invited into NHS and submitted my application and got a letter saying how I wasn't accepted into NHS because I'm lacking Community service. I've been doing community service EVERY SATURDAY FOR 12 FREAKIN' HOURS SINCE LAST DECEMBER!!!! I'm furious right now!!! I don't know what to do!!!!!
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