Long time, no blog.

Well, I officially hate my life. I know a lot more people have it harder than me but I just feel so lonely, afraid, angry, happy, and just over all conflicted. Today was the first day I actually wished death upon someone. The upside of it was that it was my grandma :/ I feel terrible, but the things she said today were just....there's no words for them. She's a manipulating twat headed fat fuck who just needs to die already. I can't even believe there's such a mean of a person in this world - God really fucked up on this one. Who the hell says "Hey sweetie, maybe you should lose a few pounds...you're really overweight (mind you I'm 5'9" adnd 141 lbs) I'm embarassed to be around you. Well, I mean you've got nothing going for you so you might as well go ahead and eat to death! :D " WHO THE HELL SAYS THESE KIND OF THINGS?!?! And to your own granddaughter for Pete's sake!!! I can't even wrap my mind around this. A God-bearing person thinks and says these things!

Fuck it.
Fuck it.
Fuck it.
Fuck it.


Oh, and a couple of days ago my mother (she's in prison) decided to tell me that I have another brother who she gave up for adoption and now he wants to meet her and talk! His family is rich, nice, considerate, NOT MENTAL as the most important thing, and REALLy truly loves him. Why couldn't I be adopted out? It's a terrible thing to wish but I mean seriously, why can't I be him? I've just been in a real pissy mood lately. Everything is crumbling.

I'm losing everything. Help somebody, I just can't take it much longer. I'm dying inside and I can't save myself.


Help.

FML.

Today was the worst day of my life. My computer got a virus that shuts it down and when I try to back everything up it cancels everything. ALL of my files (i.e. pictures, music, documents) are gone. EVERYTHING!!! I don't know what to do!!!!! I'm reall stressin' out! OHMYGOD!!!!! How do I fix it?!?! My aunt says she doesn't know what she can do about it in the voice where you can tell she just wants me to shut up and implies that she doesn't care. I hate this. Help me. I'm freakin's out so much! THAT'S ALL I CAN SAY OVER AND OVER!!!! THERE'S NO OTHER WORDS FOR THIS!!!


BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?



HEELLLPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is how my aunt would react if all the stuff on her crackberry was deleted. I've seen her act this way. It's happened before and then she has the balls to tell ME I'M overreacting!!!


WTF MAN?!


Stupid technology.
Stupid viruses.
Who creates them? Whoever it is - I HATE them.
Hate.
Hate.
Hate.

12 Hours of Sleep? Win.

Hola Amigos!

IT'S DECEMBER 1!! THAT MEANS 24 MORE DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!!!

Well, it's 4:20 in the morning and I'm doing my blog for yesterday. So, I was at school and went through each class with every single one being uneventful so there's nothing to talk about. But...when I got home around 3 or so I watched my uncle play COD:BO for a little while and then all of a sudden I got REALLY tired. I'm not sure why though, it just kinda hit me like a semi. so I went and laid down and passed right out! I didn't wake up until 4 this morning! Greatest 12 hours of my life. I can't even begin to tell you how good it feels to sleep and not do homework after school. It's ridiculous. I did have HW though and that's probably what I should be doing right now...oh well. This amount of sleep I got is so rare that I just have to blog about it.

So the moral of the story was that I went to bed around 3 and didn't wake up until 4 this morning and I'm so happy, you don't even know.

Well, good morning to you all!

Oh my gosh, I was watching TV on Saturday and My Life As Liz was on!!!!! My favorite show of all time if you can't tell by the title of this blog. Oh, how I wish I had her friends. They're so carefree!