Well, I officially hate my life. I know a lot more people have it harder than me but I just feel so lonely, afraid, angry, happy, and just over all conflicted. Today was the first day I actually wished death upon someone. The upside of it was that it was my grandma :/ I feel terrible, but the things she said today were just....there's no words for them. She's a manipulating twat headed fat fuck who just needs to die already. I can't even believe there's such a mean of a person in this world - God really fucked up on this one. Who the hell says "Hey sweetie, maybe you should lose a few pounds...you're really overweight (mind you I'm 5'9" adnd 141 lbs) I'm embarassed to be around you. Well, I mean you've got nothing going for you so you might as well go ahead and eat to death! :D " WHO THE HELL SAYS THESE KIND OF THINGS?!?! And to your own granddaughter for Pete's sake!!! I can't even wrap my mind around this. A God-bearing person thinks and says these things!
Fuck it.
Fuck it.
Fuck it.
Fuck it.
Oh, and a couple of days ago my mother (she's in prison) decided to tell me that I have another brother who she gave up for adoption and now he wants to meet her and talk! His family is rich, nice, considerate, NOT MENTAL as the most important thing, and REALLy truly loves him. Why couldn't I be adopted out? It's a terrible thing to wish but I mean seriously, why can't I be him? I've just been in a real pissy mood lately. Everything is crumbling.
I'm losing everything. Help somebody, I just can't take it much longer. I'm dying inside and I can't save myself.
Help.
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